PERSONAL GROWTH | POETRY

Calculated Manipulation

Emika Oka (Mika)

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how do I confront
the unsettling realization
that you might be exploiting
my vulnerabilities
for your own gain?
it’s a disheartening thought
that casts a shadow
over our interactions
stirring doubt and mistrust

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how do I navigate
this delicate balance
between wanting to believe
in the good intentions of others
and safeguarding myself
against potential harm?

how do I discern
between genuine care
and calculated manipulation
especially when the lines can be so blurred?
it’s a challenge to unravel
the motives behind your actions
to gauge whether they stem
from sincerity or ulterior motives

how do I protect my heart
from being entangled
in a web of deceit,
while still allowing room
for connection and vulnerability?

how do I hold onto
my sense of self-worth and confidence
in the face of someone
who may seek to undermine it?
it’s a battle to shield
my self-esteem
from the potential impact of your actions
to refuse to let doubt seep
into the core of who I am.

how do I maintain
my authenticity and inner strength,
even as I question
the authenticity of your intentions?

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Emika Oka (Mika)

Sharing her unique perspective on the world as a hearing-impaired autistic person with bipolar disorder despite the challenges.